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My Story, Part 1: The Beginning

The idea to start a blog stemmed from a comment I made in a Facebook group:

My conversion story is so long and complicated, I could write a book.

I figured it would be therapeutic for myself to write things down. Figure them out, because honestly when I think about all the things I’ve experienced, witnessed, and learned during the last 21 years of my life, it’s hard to keep things straight. I hope my story can help someone else, I hope it will give others hope. I hope it will bring others to Christ. That is my prayer. That my story will ultimately bring glory to God.

I’ll kick off this blog with a series of posts explaining who I am, where I came from, and how I came to Christ. I wish I could keep this blog anonymous, but I’ll have to figure that one out later. I also want to add that I’m not sure where this blog will go. It might end up being an advise blog or it might be a compilation of stories from others. Either way, thank you so much for listening to me and for joining me on this journey 🙂

So let’s take it back to the beginning…

I’m not entirely sure when it happened or why but somehow my great-grandmother and her husband got in to a religion called Christian Science (I’ll probably do a future post on that). My grandmother and her brothers were all raised in it. In fact my grandma was so into it that she became a CS nurse. She moved to Massachusetts very young to learn her trade at the Benevolence Association, a Christian Science nursing home in Chestnut Hill. This part of the story is achy because I’ve only been told bits and pieces. Anyways, eventually my grandmother wound up meeting my grandfather at a CS nursing home. She was a nurse and he worked in a different department (not sure what). My grandparents did quite a lot of church hopping. My dad has told me that they got married in a Mormon church, but that he also remembers visiting a Baptist and Presbyterian church when he was young. They always returned to Christian Science though.

My father also decided to take the same path, and so during the 1980s he became a CS nurse as well. He eventually found his way out to New Jersey (He grew up in the Southwestern US), where he began work at Tenacre nursing home. There he met my mom who was also a nurse. They got married in 1988 and moved out to Ohio in 1990. My mom had some trouble conceiving, but in 1995, after much prayer I finally arrived, then in 1998 by brother was born.

Continue to Part 2 to hear the next part  of my story 🙂

Soli Deo Gloria

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How trusting in God’s sovereignty helped me when my dad had a stroke and why this teaches me to trust Him on other things.

As I wrote in my last post my father had a hemorrhagic stroke back in December. This event was easily one of the hardest in my entire life (thus far). It was completely unexpected. what started as a normal Sunday morning turned into a nightmare for my family and everyone around us.

I was at church when it all happened and when I got the call my initial reaction was to ask everyone to pray for my dad and for my family. This small action set me in the right state of mind to face what my dad was going through.  It put me at such ease to know that others were petitioning on our behalf for us. As the day went by I asked more and more people to pray for him. I wholeheartedly believe that because of this God gave me a sense of peace and comfort throughout everything and it continues today.

Many times in scripture it talks about the Lord having control over things and putting many things into motion, either for a later reason, or to teach a lesson, etc.  I think the biggest lesson that I learned from this is that I need to cling to God no matter what the situation is. If God can ordain the tough situations in life then I’m sure He can ordain the good things too. This is something we should remember in our day to day lives. And this doesn’t necessarily have to mean big events, it can be smaller things too. He can always get us through. God is good.

Soli Deo Gloria

Sorry.

Just wanted to say sorry for not being consistent with my posts. In the last month (I.e 3 weeks) I’ve gone through quite a bit.

On December 10th 2017 my father suffered a hemorrhagic stroke around 11:30 AM. He was fine for the first day or two but on the third night he was put on a ventilator and then had to undergo emergency brain surgery the following day to remove blood clots and relieve pressure so that swelling would go down.  After that he was in a coma like state for about a week. He was slowly starting to get better but still needed a ventilator. Unfortunately you can only be on it for ten days.

So around day 5 we we’re told that we would have to make a decision for him. Not based on what we want but based on what he would want. That decision was to either let him pass peacefully or to give him a tracheostomy. We knew he would not want to have a tracheostomy and we also were unsure what kind of quality  of life he would have if we gave him it. So we made the decision that if he did not improve by day ten then we would take him off and let him pass.

He did not improve until the very last day. Unfortunately it was not enough to for him to survive on his own. He was alert enough for us all to say goodbye to him. He held my hand and cried as I cried, he could hear me speak and showed visible signs of understanding me. On December 23 2017 he was taken off of the ventilator around 6:45 PM. He passed away at 11:15 PM.

Death is not easy. Grief is not easy. But God offers us rest. He offers to take our burdens and to give us assurance that things will be better. In Christ we have hope. God is sovereign and He is in control. We only need lean on Him.

 

Soli Deo Gloria.

 

What I learned from the past 3 years of my life.

What I learned from the past 3 years of my life.

God is SO GOOD!

That’s it. You can all go home now. That’s all I learned.

Just kidding.

But really. That phrase basically sums it all up. I’ve had a rough three years honestly. It started with my mom passing away, battling depression/grief, my dad getting remarried to a not-so-nice woman, being in a dead end relationship etc etc.

But God has perfect timing and knows exactly what we need and when we need it. All we need to do is trust in Him and trust His plan. I struggled (and still do) with trusting God. Believe me when I say that I know it can be really hard to trust in someone that we can’t necessarily see, especially when things in our life keep going awry.

I’ve learned to humble myself. I may not have deserved everything that happened in my life, but I certainly never thanked God for the tings that I do have, or prayed about the things that I needed. I was never patient about the things I wanted.

Jeremiah 17:7 says “Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD.” (ESV) and Psalm 21:7 says “For the king trusts in the LORD, and through the steadfast love of the Most High he shall not be moved.” (ESV) and boy is that the truth!

Sometimes in life we will have moments where it feels like everything has been taken away and like we are suffering, but if we trust in God, He will surely get us through. I recommend reading the book of Job during these times. God certainly used it to open my eyes to so many truths.

The Lord is sovereign and He is good.

Soli Deo Glroia

My Top 5 Favorite Hymns

My Top 5 Favorite Hymns

I love music! I was in orchestra from 5th grade all the way to high school. I still play a little bit here and there, when I have the time. One of my favorite parts of church is worship. I love hymns, especially the old traditional ones (I like some contemporary christian music too but I honestly don’t think it can hold a candle to the old stuff, but I’ll write a post about my favorite CCM songs too!) I don’t necessarily like these only for theological reasons. I may like the melody, the lyrics, my ability to sing it, or the author/origin of it.

So lets get started!

 

1. What a Friend We Have In Jesus

To be honest, when I first heard the title of this song, I thought it was going to be fluffy and silly. But then I heard it on TV (without lyrics) and I really liked the tune. We had sang it once before that in church and I really didn’t think much about it, but this time I liked the tune so much that I decided to look it up and see if I could play it on the piano. With this I finally got to look at the lyrics without rushing to sing or distraction, and I loved them. This all came to me at a time when I was really struggling to trust God and to wait on Him. The repeating line Take it to the Lord in prayer was such a great reminder that I need to just take all my problems and troubles to God and He will help me through it all, one way or another. Now today when I start to get worried about something or I am concerned about a certain situation, I remind myself; take it to the Lord in Prayer.

2. Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing

This is by far one of my favorites to sing, probably because from a musical standpoint it’s easier for me. I’ve always liked it for that reason. But the lyrics are just as amazing. They speak to how much we have to thank God for, how despite our wandering God still redeems us.

3. Be Thou My Vision

Another one that is easier for me to sing, which makes me enjoy it all the more. Also, its an Irish hymn which gets bonus points with this Irish-American girl! 🙂

4. A Mighty Fortress is Our God

I love the music for this one! The tune speaks to how strong and mighty our God is! Also the fact that it was inspired by a psalm is pretty awesome too.

5. Nothing but the Blood

This was one of the first hymns that I heard after coming to Christ. My favorite way to sing it is in a slower solemn style. The lyrics are my favorite and such a great reminder that only Jesus’ precious blood can atone for our many sins

 

 

3 Books Every Christian Should Read

3 Books Every Christian Should Read

I know posts like this are a little cliche, but I’ve been reading some pretty good books recently and I thought I would give it a go! Of course as disclaimer this is subjective and purely my own opinion.

1) THE BIBLE!!!

This should be a no brainer of course, but anyways. Reading the Bible is vital for any Christian. When we read the Bible we are reading God’s Word. He is speaking directly to us. I recommend getting a simple reading plan, like this one and this one. Don’t be afraid to highlight and write in your Bible. Charles Spurgeon once said “A Bible that’s falling apart usually belongs to someone who isn’t.” Here is a great one.

2) Do I Know God?  by Tullian Tchividjian

I was really struggling with my salvation when I read it, but it helped me so much. Tchividjian gave reasons and solutions to why we may be doubting, most of which are practical. It’s an easy read and I would say its very beneficial for any and all Christians to read. You can buy it here.

3) The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller

This book is seriously the best. I gleaned so much from it despite me not being married nor engaged. I learned not only how to relate and interact with a potential spouse but also how to relate and interact with people in general. There was also a great amount of Gospel truths that I would recommend it to non-believes as well. You can buy it here.

 

Well, there you have it! Those are my top 3 books (for right now) that I believe every christian should read!

Soli Deo Gloria

 

 

An Update on My Life

I can’t quite remember where I had left off in my previous blog entry. I know it’s been a wile since I’ve written any thing and I know I said that wouldn’t happen with this blog. But sometimes life gets busy and you just don’t have the time (or the creativity) to write out exciting things. And also I wasn’t really sure where to go after I told my whole story. I mean how could I have topped all of that?

Anyways.

I wanted to come back and update those of you who read my entries/those who may be following this blog. Some things have changed a little since I last wrote .

Starting with I went through a breakup.

Friends, please take this to heart when I say do not date a non-Christian if you are a Christian . It will only bring heartache. Also, do not date long distance. This too will bring heartache.

The reasons I went through this break up is as follows:

  1. He was not a Christian and he made no effort to even consider becoming one
  2. He lived in a different country and there was no evidence to suggest that we would ever meet each other
  3. I met a guy

I didn’t cheat, I want to make that clear. I broke up with the other guy because it was clear that there could be something fruitful between this new guy and I. And I was right. He’s a Christian, hard worker, he lives near me, hes altogether a great guy. He’s also a Baptist, which if you’ve read in my previous posts you may have noted that I joined a Presbyterian church. However, I find that I am more closely aligned with Baptist doctrine (credo baptist right here). There isn’t really a Reformed Baptist church anywhere in my city though, so this is just another blessing from the Lord. I just love his church! Usually I go with him but since he is out of town this Sunday I’m going to try going by myself, so that way I can get to know people by myself. Its been three months with him and I am so happy. God is good, ya’ll. You need only wait on him.

Next; I got a job! Its not anything too fancy. Its at a local ice cream shop. I’m just so happy that I’ll finally have an income.

Also, since writing my last posts, I finished reading the entire Bible and, boy, did that bless me! The Lord opened my eyes to so many things during that year. I grew so much in Him and I’m so thankful!

I started a new bible reading plan, Read the Bible in 90 days, and I can’t wait to see where the Lord takes me during this time.

That’s all I have for you (for now). I promise I’m going to try to write regularly this time.

God bless!

Soli Deo Gloria.

My Story Part 5; New and Reformed

I was reading many articles and following many blogs all over the Internet about Reformed theology. At first I thought that Reformed theology was only the five points of calvinism, little did I know that there are also creeds and confessions that we hold to.

So I started looking for reformed churches in my hometown. I preferred Presbyterian, but any reformed church would do. At this point I didn’t even know that there were liberal and conservative  denominations (imagine my horror when I started finding out that almost every Presbyterian church in my city is PCUSA and mostly has female pastors.)

Around the beginning of November, I decided to visit my cities Presbyterian church, they were very nice but hardly talked about Jesus. Infact the past. Preached that something can change the world is “a smile” not God. That bothered me and after doing some research, and come to find out they were PCUSA. This was disappointing because I though I had finally found a church that was “perfect”(as perfect as a church can be of course, which we all know no church is ever truly perfect 😉 ).  So I stopped attending after a week or two. It was about December and I felt so depressed over the fact that I didn’t have a church to attend during such an important time. I wanted to try a PCA church next but it was so small that I was a little anxious and self conscious to go in (silly, I know). I have no doubt that they are a good church though.

At that moment I decided to attend an OPC church. I decided I would go on Christmas so that way I could blend in with any new people. To my surprise I did not blend in and had people constantly coming to talk to me. I left a little dazed over it because this church had been dubbed the “mega church of the OPC” ( or at least that’s what I’ve been told). I don’t even think they though I would come back, but I did. And I’ve been going for about 2 months now. I quite enjoy this church, it’s large but you still know everyone, it’s traditional worship (they have an organ!!), and the preaching is always sound. I’m taking an inquirers class in March and have been reading through Westminster Shorter Catchism.

I really think that finding a good church has had a positive influence on my day-to-day life. I’m attending school everyday, I have a far better attitude, I have better self-esteem, I have things to look forward too, I’ve made many friends, and have someone who is sheparding me.

I praise God for all that I have been through because without it I wouldn’t be where I am.

Soli Deo Gloria.

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